"the N-word"

Tonight I was at work uptown working on St.Patrick's Day..a couple of drunks whatever..got bills. Matt B. was DJing..and played a Rage Against the Machine song and a girl and her boyfriend was acting like they wanted to throw chairs. So I told them to chill, I didn't mind they dancing just chill with the chairs. They were cool about it, then one of the guys they were with tells me something in my ear that I just quite didn't hear at first. After my ears adjust, he said to tell the DJ to stop playing music like this and maybe they won't dance all wild..since I had a problem with it..so he says. So I look at him and tell him I asked them to not pick up the chairs..I didn't care about the dancing..and to chill and don't worry about it they are good. So he tells me again this same thing, and he's a little drunk but not bad he knew what he was saying..then I look at him..like dude are kidding Rage is making them wanna throw chairs in the bar? So he looks at me and tells me "fuck off" and goes back over to were he was. So I just calmly went and grabbed Terry and Mizz to kindly help me escort this gentleman out. So he not putting up a fight, his friends see that he's getting kicked out so they follow him out. One of his boys starts talking shit and calls me a the "N-word" with fucking on the front of it. I was actually so shocked it through me for a loop..but I automatically pull out my knife and told him..
"Hey homie since you wanna use the N-word now I gotta cut cha!"
So then I take off my radio and putting my knife back in my pocket(because assault with a deadly weapon is 5-10 years)..I know Mizz came from the side and hit the dude twice I wanted to fight as I was putting my knife back in my pocket..Terry hit the guy and kicked him (in the back or the ribs)we was kicking out in the first place. They kinda bum rushed them so fast..It was kinda over b4 I even got ready. It happened so fast..whatever...then a little more arguing then they thought about coming back but changed their minds.

Now which leads me back to something I have a problem with..yes the N-word.
Because of this is the second time at the bar muthafucka wanna go there I don't wanna hear the word anymore. You know who you are, you know who I'm talking about, don't care if that's a nickname anymore. That's all I think it is now, people don't respect people anymore. It just makes me think what do you say when your not around black folks. If you can't say that shit in my barbershop called "Anderton's" or "Chop Shop" on Betties Ford Road..with your pistol or no pistol..you won't make out there alive..I guarantee you that. Don't care how many songs, movies, Boondocks, Chappelle's Shows, Paul Mooney..I don't care..don't say it. With an "a" on the end..it's the same thing it do not make it better man. I don't see how you can shake my hand and think that shit is ok..this is not for one person..this is for a few people.
It's okay I couldn't start calling people racial slurs to get back at them, becz that makes me look just as ignorant. I grew up in Germany and California
not that the reason..but it helped. I have people right here in NC that know not to cross those lines. Hell even when my black folks use it so freely too..I'm like..eh..not good..becz they feel it's okay now.
So yeah no matter how it's spelled, how it's said, who said it..
it all means this to me.